<p>1<br> <br> Emaline searches the sky for storm clouds from the doorway<br> of the Victoria Inn. The man snoring at her feet grunts,<br> rolls over, and curls himself around an upturned bottle of<br> whiskey. She picks up her skirt, steps over him onto the<br> porch. Can’t predict the weather this time of year. Fools<br> even the wild flowers. Mistake three days of sunshine for<br> the start of May when one hard freeze will snap the petals<br> right off and kill the early batch of mosquitoes already<br> swarming.<br> <br> Across the road, the chapel’s canvas roof sags like wet<br> clothes on a line. It won’t take another snow like the last.<br> Klein promised to fix the damn thing, but he’s probably knee<br> deep in the creek with the rest of them. It’s no wonder nobody<br> in these parts has struck pay dirt yet, what with their canvas<br> tents and frame cabins so easy to desert. Why would the earth<br> give up its gold just to be abandoned on rumor of another<br> strike? The soil is a shrewd old whore and has learned better<br> than to give her gold for free.<br> <br> A person should have a solid foundation, Emaline always<br> says, some sort of permanence in her life, a place for luck to<br> grow. That’s why she’s insisting on having the chapel finished.<br> Nothing establishes a place like inviting God to stay. She<br> imagines a tidy steeple with a sensible wooden cross, a simple<br> oak pulpit and rows of sober pews. No stained glass. No<br> gaudy ornamentation. Save that for the Baptists who mistake<br> the sound of their own voices for the word of God. Behind<br> the chapel she pictures a cemetery with graves surrounded<br> by white picket fences to keep souls from drifting. Emaline<br> is tired of drifting. That’s how she thinks of it; not pioneering,<br> certainly not running, but drifting. True, Motherlode isn’t<br> much to look at. Not yet. But she has a feeling about the<br> place; call it intuition.<br> <br> The ravine walls stand at attention on either side of her<br> valley and the cedars that brush the rim are a feathered fringe<br> in the glare of the afternoon sun. A movement up the road<br> catches her eye. She squints to see better.<br> <br> “Preacher,” she says. The man at her feet grunts but doesn’t<br> move. Emaline nudges him with her toe. “John.” She kicks<br> him harder. Another grunt. “Goddamnit, John! Wake your<br> sorry ass up and look down the road.”<br> <br> She reaches under him with her toe, lifts with all her might,<br> and John rolls sideways down the steps to land in a stupor<br> at the bottom. A stocky black man steps out of the building<br> behind her and stares in the direction of Emaline’s gaze.<br> <br> “T’ain’t no one but Randall, missus. And his mule.”<br> <br> “I can see who it is, Jed.” But her shoulders slump and<br> she lets out a breath, slowly, hoping Jed won’t notice. “And<br> don’t be calling me no missus.”<br> <br> Jed crosses his arms in front of him and places his hand<br> to his chin, a common posture for him. It’s hard to tell whether<br> he’s deep in thought or simply hiding a smile. Emaline sits<br> down, knees apart on the steps above Preacher John and<br> glares back at Jed.<br> <br> “Whatever you say, Miss Emaline,” he says, retreating into<br> the building just as another, smaller figure appears around<br> the mass of manzanita marking the edge of Motherlode.<br> <br> * * *<br> <br> “Randall, I tell you,” says Emaline, “if God ordered wine on<br> Sunday you’d bring it a week later Monday.”<br> <br> “Now, Emaline,” says the muleteer. His beard hangs to his<br> waist and the tobacco stain blooming about his lips is the<br> only way she can locate exactly where the whiskers end and<br> his mouth begins. “You know I can’t make the wagon come.<br> Sacramento ain’t no closer now than it were a year ago – ’less<br> you want me to come without the molasses and the mail.”<br> <br> Preacher John moans at her feet. She nudges him with her<br> toe for no other reason than to remind him she’s here. Sober<br> on Sundays, he’d said. At least he’s that, sober on Sundays.<br> She shakes her head and is happy to let Randall believe this<br> gesture is meant for him. She heaves herself from the steps<br> and Randall stumbles back, regains himself. The mule behind<br> haws its pleasure, or displeasure – hard to tell with mules –<br> and the sound ricochets off the ravine walls and falls below<br> the squawk of the scrub jays.<br> <br> “Dangerous work I’m doing,” says Randall. He rubs his<br> toe in the dirt. He spits. The mule brays again, louder this<br> time. “Man’s – A man’s gotta be careful, take his time.”<br> <br> “Careful? How much time you lose playing five-card<br> between Sac’ town and Grass Valley?” She’s yelling now above<br> the mule and she can see its ears rotating, its neck straining<br> to look behind.<br> <br> “Ah hell, Emaline.”<br> <br> “Ah hell, nothin’ . . .” Her voice trails off. She pinches her<br> eyes to slits, thrusts her neck forward to see what the mule sees.<br> <br> “Who are you?” Emaline says. The mule goes quiet.<br> <br> The stranger shifts under his load, pulls his duster hat low<br> as if he could hide there beneath it, as if my piss-poor eyes<br> can see anything but his shape anyway, she thinks. She can<br> see that he’s small. Narrow shoulders, his pack just about as<br> wide as his whole back, his trousers and flannel draping over<br> him like they have only bone to cling to. She’s known too<br> many men to judge this one’s threat by his size.<br> <br> “Randall?” she asks.<br> <br> “Hell if I know.” He shrugs, but seems content that he is<br> no longer her focus.<br> <br> The mule’s ears rotate as if it too is waiting for a response,<br> and the stranger seems to shrink down inside of himself in<br> a way that raises the hairs on the back of Emaline’s neck.<br> The mule shifts its weight foot to foot, shakes its halter.<br> <br> “I’m talking to you! Who are you?” Emaline charges<br> forward and the mule rears its ornery self, eyes wild as if<br> she’d struck the damn thing. Packages jar from the animal’s<br> back and slap the ground. Some burst open and precious<br> flour thickens the air and powders the red mud of the road.<br> Randall’s beard trails behind him as he hustles after the frenzied<br> animal, tripping in a wake of pinto beans and hollering,<br> “Goddamn you, Contrary Julie!” Red-speckled hens poke<br> their heads round the side of the inn, pick up their skirts and<br> run toward the mess of oats and beans. Scrub jays descend<br> in blue streaks to scold and scratch. Emaline bustles about<br> the muddy road, shooing chickens, flailing at jays, salvaging<br> what she can: a sack of potatoes, a side of salt pork. By the<br> time she charges back to the stranger she’s sweated clean<br> through her dress. At least, she thinks, catching her breath,<br> at least he’s seen fit to pick up a sack of flour. He holds it<br> there like a shield between them.<br> <br> “I suppose you can pay for these goods?” No response.<br> Up the road, beyond the grove of manzanita, the echoes of<br> a braying mule and a swearing man do battle. “I don’t take<br> credit nor scrip, and – Look at me.” Small black eyes peek<br> out beneath the duster hat. “And I ain’t here to nursemaid<br> no runaway mamma’s boy. Your name, if you got one?”<br> <br> But his mouth pops closed. Flour sifts from his shoulders<br> as he rummages in a small pouch at his waist.<br> <br> “Alex?” he says, but it sounds like a question, a question<br> she forgets when he holds out what looks to be a gold coin,<br> San Francisco mint – double eagle, no less. The potatoes thump<br> to the ground. She snatches the coin. Such a pleasing weight,<br> twenty dollars. She gives it a bite, finds herself softening.<br> <br> “Well, Alex,” she says, placing the coin in her dress pocket,<br> patting it twice, “you got the voice of a choirboy.”<br> <br> <br> “Haven’t got a sign up yet,” says the woman, closing the<br> door firmly behind her. Her voice fills every inch of space<br> her body leaves open and she moves with an agility surprising<br> and a little frightening in such a large woman. “But that’s<br> what I call her – the Victoria Inn.”<br> <br> She thumps the pork and potatoes on a plank table, or<br> rather a series of tables held as one by a grubby cloth. Alex<br> follows suit with the sack of flour and a puff of white escapes.<br> <br> “Victoria, like the Queen,” the woman says. She dusts her<br> hands on her apron and motions with her head to the waterstained<br> portrait of a crowned woman on the opposite wall.<br> <br> Two windows of distorting mason glass offer the only light<br> in the room and the painting’s features are indistinct. The<br> face of a youthful older woman, Alex thinks, or an aged<br> young woman, with round cheeks to match her chin.<br> <br> A ramshackle bar traverses one corner and three-legged<br> stools are scattered about. It smells of alcohol, yeast and<br> strong burned coffee, and Alex’s stomach grumbles with<br> hunger, clearly not the response the woman is waiting for.<br> <br> Emaline puffs a curl from her eyes. It catches in the frizzy<br> halo framing her angular face. She turns on her heel and<br> charges up the stairwell into a shaft of hallway light without<br> pausing to see if Alex follows. She stops by one of eight<br> doors in the narrow corridor, her hand on the latch, and<br> squints in the same probing manner she used on the muleteer,<br> the scowl on her face made deeper by crease lines like<br> poorly healed scars.<br> <br> Alex pulls the duster hat low, makes an effort to look aloof,<br> would have spit as the muleteer had done if they hadn’t been<br> inside.<br> <br> No one, yet, has taken her for a girl. No one, yet, has<br> looked this closely.<br> <br> “You’re from where, you say?”<br> <br> Alex hadn’t said, and is so relieved by the question she<br> fails to answer.<br> <br> “That’s a question,” says the woman.<br> <br> “Pennsylvania.”<br> <br> “Don’t talk much, do you?”<br> <br> <br> Alone in the room, the darkness is complete and endless,<br> even as Alex feels the closeness of the walls, the low ceiling.<br> Little by little her eyes adjust and the corners of the room<br> take shape. The bed smells sharply of cedar. The only other<br> furniture is a three-legged stool resting at a slant on the<br> uneven floorboards. There is no window, no need for<br> curtains; a single candle burned nearly to the nub sits on<br> the floor by the bed. The woman’s heavy steps descend the<br> stairs. Victoria, like the Queen, Alex thinks, and sees again<br> the whitewash peeling down the inn’s face, the unpainted<br> balusters, the ornamental balcony propped precariously over<br> the porch. She eases down to draw a line in the dust with<br> her finger. A few days is all she needs, to rest, to think.<br> <br> How far had she come since stepping off the steamer into<br> the frenzied chaos of the Marysville docks? Was it only three<br> days ago that she’d stood there on the river bank amid that<br> sea of canvas sacks, barrels and boxes? Delicate chairs, end<br> tables and bookshelves looked out of place perched alongside<br> kegs of black powder, stacks of picks and shovels, piles<br> of hydraulic tubing coiled like earthworms. Alex pulled her<br> duster hat low, avoiding the eyes of the men scurrying back<br> and forth, hauling skeins of fabric and barrels of whiskey.<br> She wanted to be back on the boat, surrounded by the hissing<br> blast of steam and the clank of pistons, away from cursing<br> muleteers and braying donkeys and important-looking men<br> dressed in black. But after Marysville the river split in two,<br> the Feather shooting north, the Yuba branching east, both<br> too rough for riverboats.<br> <br> Alex followed the Yuba because it sounded foreign and far<br> away from San Francisco, because those men she had seen<br> on the boat – lawmen, perhaps, with their trimmed mustaches,<br> their pressed black trousers – were heading north. She’d joined<br> the line of wagons rolling east, kept her head low, spoken to<br> no one, and stopped briefly at a shanty store on the edge of<br> town. It was here she’d learned of her need for boots.<br> <br> “Best there is,” the merchant claimed, stroking the blackened<br> leather with an arm that ended in a rounded stump of<br> flesh. As he spoke, he gestured with the arm, as if forgetting<br> his fingers were gone. “Made special for a colonel. Small<br> man – they all are. Killed by Comanche, ’fending women and<br> children. For you, forty dollars. Boy don’t deserve boots like<br> this. A man’s boots. War hero’s . . .”<br> <br> Gaps in the wall behind him let in streamers of light and<br> the roof shuddered with every gust of wind.<br> <br> “The hell kinda shoes are those? You steal ’em off your<br> mama’s feet? Won’t last the week. Not half a week,” said the<br> merchant. His cackle turned to a cough. Alex stepped back.<br> <br> “Wait now, thirty dollars then,” said the man. “Can’t<br> believe I’m saying it – three kids and a wife back home . . .”<br> He bowed his head, rubbed his salt-and-pepper beard with<br> his good hand. “Should just save ’em for my son, but with<br> his one leg, won’t do much good, see.”<br> <br> Alex said nothing, fearing the high pitch of her voice. She<br> shook her head no, turned to leave.<br> <br> “Goddamn! Goddamn, twenty dollars,” said the merchant,<br> dangling the boots from his stump by the laces.<br> <br> <br> She had rested in thickets, when she rested at all, and<br> followed the twisted path of the Yuba to Rough and Ready,<br> a town whose citizens had looked both rough and ready for<br> all manner of mischief, staring openly at any passers-by as<br> if assessing their worth. Here she bought a loaf of bread<br> and a gold pan from what could have been the same grizzled<br> merchant, apart from the missing arm. She put the<br> bread in her pack and the pan under her arm as if it strengthened<br> her disguise, as if gold had been the reason she’d come<br> to California, as if, when she turned off on to a narrow<br> road to the northeast, she was confident of a destination.<br> <br> The land became steeper, the earth darkened to an iron<br> red. Lonely scrub oaks in tall grass had long since given way<br> to ferns and evergreens; the towering pines pinched off the<br> sky and on the crest of every hill she found the gleaming<br> teeth of the Sierra Nevadas growing larger, more menacing.<br> By the time the trail split again – one tail coiling its way<br> toward those mountains, the other dipping down into a<br> valley – her legs were quivering protest with every step, her<br> feet throbbed, her shoulders ached. All of her bread was eaten,<br> her canteen empty, and the coil of smoke snaking its way<br> from the valley floor called to her above the distant murmur<br> of running water and the coughing protest of a donkey.<br> <br> <br> The gold pan in her pack clangs against the floor as she sits.<br> She frees herself from the straps, rolls her shoulders front to<br> back. Her leg muscles have already begun to tighten, but her<br> body feels numb, distant – as foreign as the river she’d<br> followed. She pulls her shirtsleeves to her elbows, straightens<br> her arms in front of her to find the bruises there mere smudges<br> in the dim light. As if a bit of soap and water could wash<br> them clean, she thinks, but she doesn’t touch them. She doesn’t<br> touch the knots on her lower back or just below her collarbone.<br> She can feel her heartbeat pounding in the blisters on<br> her feet. She loosens her bootlaces, peels away the woolen<br> sock. The skin of her heel is pregnant with white fluid, but<br> disappointingly intact. She wants blood, proof of pain.<br> <br> Below, a door opens and closes, and male voices seep<br> through the floorboards.<br> <br> “Alex,” she says to herself. The voice of a choirboy. She<br> pulls her chin into her neck, scrunching her vocal cords.<br> “Alex,” she says again, and is still practicing when a black<br> man sticks his head through the door.<br> <br> “You don’t come now, it’ll be gone. They ain’t fixin’ to<br> wait for you.”<br> <br> <br> Downstairs, she finds herself trapped by the eyes of eight men<br> hunched around the plank table, their expressions masked by<br> facial hair and layers of dirt. The black man sits down opposite<br> the head, but no one seems the least surprised by his boldness.<br> The only sound is heavy breathing and the silence pricks<br> the hairs on her arms. She tries to sit and finds a muddy boot<br> planted on the only unoccupied stool. The owner’s beard is<br> yellow and a twisted smirk reveals teeth of the same color.<br> <br> A giant oak of a man to Muddy Boots’s right lets out a<br> long curving whistle that rises upward to the low-beam ceiling<br> and spills in a puddle on the floor. The kitchen door bangs<br> open and the woman bustles through with a large iron pot.<br> <br> “Look out,” she says, brushing Alex aside, and slams the<br> pot on the table. Muddy Boots moves his feet.<br> <br> “You need an invitation?” she asks. Alex sits, feels her cheeks<br> flush hot.<br> <br> “All right, Preacher,” says the woman.<br> <br> “Dearly Beloved,” says a dark-haired man with just a hint<br> of whiskey in his voice. He stands, as if it just occurred to<br> him to do so, and runs his hands up and down his flannel.<br> His eyeballs search for words beneath his lids and his hands<br> clasp so tightly his knuckles show white. “We are gathered<br> here today, Lord, to thank you for your wondrous bounty.”<br> <br> “’Cept when it comes to gold,” says a baritone to Alex’s<br> right; the whistler, she thinks. A low chuckle catches, then<br> dies. She bows her head, but lets her eyes dart to the pot<br> mid-table. A large round loaf of bread sweats under a cloth<br> and she begs her stomach silent.<br> <br> “And lead us not into temptation, Lord. No, lead us far<br> from temptation, our Father who art in heaven. We hallow<br> thy name, giving glory, Lord. Thanks for health, we ask for<br> wealth. Hallelujah, let’s eat.”<br> <br> Preacher’s plate is half empty before Alex is allowed to<br> scrape the bottom of the iron pot for the last chunks of<br> rabbit stew. What bread there was has already been<br> snatched.<br> <br> “Don’t get used to it, boys,” says Emaline. Her tone is<br> thick with disappointment, and men pause mid-chew to listen.<br> “Be cinching our belts by the end of the week, thanks to our<br> new friend here.”<br> <br> The serving spoon and nine faces point in Alex’s direction.<br> Alex looks down at her plate. Alex chews. She has to tell<br> herself to do these things.<br> <br> “But damned if he ain’t offered to buy drinks all round to<br> make up for it!”<br> <br> “Attaboy, son,” says the baritone and slaps her on the<br> back, propelling the chunk of rabbit meat across the table<br> and into the bowl of a beardless man with expressionless<br> gray eyes. A drooping auburn mustache curtains his thin lips<br> and frames his cleft chin.<br> <br> “No forgiveness like whiskey. Ain’t that right, Preacher?”<br> The baritone stands, nearly brushing his head on the crossbeam.<br> A grin fills his face. Alex flinches, afraid there’s another<br> slap coming, good natured though the first one seemed. The<br> mustache man fishes with both fingers for Alex’s meat in his<br> stew. His eyes flit to Alex and away.<br> <br> “Don’t think we’ve been properly introduced,” the baritone<br> says. “Mighty hard to be polite on an empty stomach,<br> you know. No excuse, mind you, but the truth. I ’spect you<br> met Preacher John yonder, but don’t ask him to remember<br> it. The one-eyed fella next to you is Micah Daniels, also a<br> resident here at the Victoria. Owns a sore excuse for a general<br> store and assay office just down the walk. Claims he can<br> figure fine, but you watch him careful when he’s weighing<br> your gold. Been known to lighten the load some, yah know<br> what I mean, and grows his fingernails long enough to get<br> two dollars in one pinch of gold dust.<br> <br> “Harry Reynolds there lives in the first cabin as you come<br> into town, along with good Mr. Fred Henderson, selfproclaimed<br> expert on rocks, animals, plants and all things<br> natural. Next to him is our German friend Klein, master<br> builder and jack-of-all-trades – when he feels like doing ’em.<br> Got no other name, so don’t go asking him. Just Klein. You<br> met Jed –” he nods to the black man – “and Emaline; Miss<br> Emaline, if you know what’s good for you.<br> <br> “My name is Samson Limpkin, but most call me Limpy<br> on account of, well, let’s say a crooked limb. And the man<br> you so graciously shared your stew with –” he nods to the<br> mustache man – “is my cousin, David Trellona, fresh out of<br> Cornwall and thinkin’ he knows more about mining than<br> those Empire folks over in Grass Valley. Why work like a<br> dog for some other man? Aye, Dave. Why indeed?”<br> <br> Limpy takes a swig from his cup, wipes his mouth with<br> the back of his hand, and with the same hand points at<br> Muddy Boots, still bent over his bowl as if intent on<br> ignoring him.<br> <br> “And that there is John Thomas. Not much on manners,<br> but . . . well, not much on anything.”<br> <br> “Damn you, Limpy,” says Muddy Boots, his mouth full of<br> food.<br> <br> Alex can feel the big man’s breath down her neck. He pulls<br> a gold pouch from his pocket, holds it like an egg in the palm<br> of his hand.<br> <br> “And you are . . . ?” Limpy asks.<br> <br> The curve of Emaline’s brow, the curl of her lips, tells Alex<br> these men know very well the name she gave.<br> <br> “A simple question, son,” says Limpy. “Name?”<br> <br> Men lean forward, listening, and names and faces swim as<br> mismatched pairs through Alex’s mind. She pulls her head<br> into her neck, says as deeply as she can manage:<br> <br> “Alex.”<br> <br> “Hah!” says Limpy, his paw slamming down again, this<br> time square on her back, forcing all the air from her chest.<br> “Eighteen, my ass. Who said eighteen? John Thomas, trying<br> to hide? Alex what?”<br> <br> “Shee-it,” says Micah, thumping a small pouch of gold on<br> the table and giving Alex a close look at the concave indention<br> of skin where his left eye should be.<br> <br> “Why thank you, Micah. Alex what?” Limpy asks again.<br> Outside, a scrub jay screams the sun down.<br> <br> “Ford?” Alex says, hearing the doubt in her own voice.<br> Emaline’s arms cross before her and her eyes narrow to slits,<br> but Limpy doesn’t seem to notice.<br> <br> “Alex Ford,” he says. “Solid name. No more than sixteen,<br> if that. Pay up.” Leather pouches thump on the table. “Pay<br> up, John Thomas,” says Limpy.<br> <br> “Now just hold on a goddamn minute,” John Thomas says,<br> his fair skin turning the red of Micah’s empty eye socket. “I’ll<br> pay you later.”<br> <br> “My ass.”<br> <br> “Hell yes, your ass – you calling me a liar?”<br> <br> “Both of you better sit yourselves right back down,” says<br> Emaline, barely raising her voice. “Y’all know I don’t permit<br> no gambling at the dinner table. And you, Alex –” the serving<br> spoon again jabs her direction – “finish up so I can get to<br> getting done with dinner.”<br> <br> <br> With the plank tables separated, the room feels smaller,<br> cluttered. The ramshackle bar at the far end of the room<br> now dominates, the counter lined with tin cups and a few<br> glass canning jars, and now the elbows of Limpy and the<br> one-eyed Micah. Bloated whiskey jugs on shelves behind<br> the bar are blurred in the orange lamplight and look, to<br> Alex, like a row of rotund women. Several card games<br> are already in progress when Alex eases her way up the<br> stairs.<br> <br> “Hey,” says Emaline, pushing through the kitchen door.<br> She thumps a stool down next to her own. “Stick a while.”<br> <br> And something, the weight of her filling that doorway,<br> or the calm authority in her voice, triggers an old habit of<br> obedience. Alex sits, but remains above on the stairwell with<br> her chin tucked into her knees. She hadn’t liked the suspicious<br> glances the woman had been casting through dinner.<br> She prays the woman’s eyes are as poor as they seem.<br> <br> “Whatever suits you,” says Emaline, dismissing her with<br> a wave of the hand.<br> <br> “’Scuse me, gents, Emaline . . .” Limpy’s voice and body<br> rise as one from the bar and the saloon goes silent. “A toast.<br> To Alex and his gentle way with mules. May his way with<br> women be less costly, but just as exciting!”<br> <br> He tips his glass, leads a collective swallow, motions to<br> Jed to fill his cup again. “Now don’t you dare smile there,<br> Alex, don’t.” Alex does not feel like smiling, makes no<br> attempt to smile. Six coins left, she thinks. She’d felt so rich<br> with twelve.<br> <br> “And speaking of costly,” says Limpy, downing the next<br> glass, “how ’bout it Emaline? Nearly hit it today. Sho’ ’nough<br> pay dirt. Pay you double price. I say I’ll pay you double,<br> tomorrow –”<br> <br> “Now hold on there, Limp. You know the woman doesn’t<br> take credit, and I’m a hell of a lot prettier than you anyway –<br> and richer,” says Micah, winking his one eye.<br> <br> “The hell –”<br> <br> “And I can hold my liquor.”<br> <br> Alex is only vaguely aware of what they’re saying. The rest<br> of their banter is lost beneath the groan of the accordion in<br> the corner – a tune that just might be “The Old Oaken<br> Bucket” or “Clementine,” or a wobbly combination of the<br> two – and as if called by this racket, miners begin to trickle<br> into the saloon. No less than thirty, if she had a head to<br> count, and she doubts whether some of those mud-stained<br> canvas pants and holey flannels had ever been, or would ever<br> be washed. It would certainly ease the competing stench of<br> rotting canvas, stale tobacco, whiskey. The men lean on the<br> bar and against the walls and against each other. They swear<br> and laugh with their mouths wide open, chew plugs of<br> tobacco, smoke cob pipes, and soon the air is thick and yellow.<br> Their hands stroke leather pouches of gold dust, arrange and<br> rearrange dog-eared playing cards, fiddle with the worn visors<br> of discolored hats and punctuate speech with herky-jerky<br> movements in the air. To Alex they are a collection of parts,<br> of hands, feet and hats, interchangeable with a few exceptions:<br> John Thomas; the big man, Limpy; the black man, Jed;<br> one-eyed Micah; the mustache man, David, whose broadangled<br> shoulders give him a stocky compact appearance next<br> to Limpy, even as he tops Micah by inches.<br> <br> And there, sitting apart from the rest by the kitchen door,<br> is Emaline. In her lap, a pair of trousers, needle, thread. Her<br> fingers are busy, but she glances down only so often at her<br> work.<br> <br> Her weight is not so much the round softness of other<br> women Alex has known, or the wire sinew of her gran.<br> Emaline is solid, with wide, square shoulders and thick veintracked<br> forearms. A fringe of dark hair feathers her upper<br> lip. Her only softness appears to be her generous bosom that<br> strains the front of her dress like mounds of rising sourdough.<br> Emaline’s hands work the cloth. Deft, confident movements,<br> and Alex finds her fingers moving of their own accord, with<br> life and memory of their own.<br> <br> She forces her hands to fists, stuffs them in her pockets.<br> Gran, too, could sew by feel alone, her fingers unconscious<br> of themselves and of the bent-wire body to which they were<br> attached. Gran was never so patient with Alex as she was<br> with cloth. “After three boys,” she liked to say, “three foolish,<br> foolish boys, God at least could have given me a proper<br> granddaughter.”<br> <br> Proper, Alex thinks. What would Gran think of her now,<br> after all she’s seen? After what she’s done? She rises unnoticed,<br> climbs the stairs. Thigh muscles catch and pull with<br> every step. She slips across the hallway and closes the door<br> of the dark little room behind her.</p><br><br><br><i>From the Trade Paperback edition.</i> <BR><BR><i>Continues...</i> <!-- copyright notice --> <br></pre> <blockquote><hr noshade size='1'><font size='-2'> Excerpted from <b>Crown of Dust</b> by <b>Mary Volmer</b> Copyright © 2010 by Mary Volmer. Excerpted by permission of Soho Press, a division of Random House, Inc.<br> All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.<br>Excerpts are provided by Dial-A-Book Inc. solely for the personal use of visitors to this web site.
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